The fact that I am blogging on Valentine's Day at approximately 12:45am should clearly explain my relationship with this pointless, never-ending holiday....  ugh.  To be honest, I've never really been fond of this day, nor have i ever understood the point of it???  I'm the kind of girl that if I love you, you'll know it, and you won't just know it on a random day in the middle of February... You'll know it every single day.  It's truly a blessing and a curse.... when I love, I love with every last ounce of my soul.....   a terrible, beautiful gift! ;o)  hmmm.... that brings me to the obvious, I haven't had a Valentine in 6 years... O. I've received many random gifts, cards, etc... but no Valentine 'Man'....  Matter of fact, I tend to get those "I love u / I'm sorry / why did I ever leave you" cards this time of year that I could definitely do WITHOUT, as flattered as I am, SAVE em boyZ!  haha!!!  On that note, this day has been entirely too long and I've got posing practice in the morning.... I'll wake up tomorrow and this day will be OVER!!!  O wait, it will still be V-day when I wake up!  I'm over it, I'm out!  lol

HappyCrAzY Valentines Day everyone!  MUAH!!!

Haven't had a REST day in ..... well probably over a year!  What better day to take a break from the gym than superbowl sunday, after all I have been kicking my own a**! My body is definitely drained today..... matter of fact I laid in bed with my dogs this morning until 10am! When your used to getting up and doing your cardio at 5 or 6am, 6 days a week...  10am is NICE!  I'm enjoying this now, before the  insomnia kicks in closer to Jr. nat's....  ahhhh the stress, my body craves it!!!  ugh!  As for now, I am enjoying this day.... who am i going for ???  i dunno?  LOL  I love sports....  but as most of you would say, "your a better cheerleader than you are an actual fan tracy"...  ha!  Although, I do LOVE to watch BASKETBALL  (hope i won't regret saying this on superbowl sunday... we'll save my BBall blog for all-star weekend, next week..... AND into MARCH MADNESS!) :o)  That I can talk about!!! 

ok,  I am a google *hore.... I'm beginning to wonder if my OCD has created its own therapy by googling any and everything! lol....  I've been googling  info on the superbowl today and have found some interesting facts that I'm sure most of you know.... for example,  there isn't just a gameball, i mean i assumed there were a couple, but there are 120 official balls!  ehh, why do they need so many?  AND... the Vince Lombardi Trophy, which is what the winning team receives, is made by Tiffany & Co..... hmmm, maybe i am interested in this game after all!  And I didn't know that the Dallas Cowboys have been to the most superbowls than any other team, 8!  But the Pittsburgh Steelers have won the most, 6!   Dallas... where were you this year???  I am in Oklahoma, so of course I am a Cowboy fan!   Or is it because my lifelong dream was to become a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader??  i remember my friends telling me, "tracy, you can't be a cheerleader your whole life.... it's not a job!"  One day... i'm going to try on one of those suits and run across that field!  I'll show them!!! ;o)  well.... I'm off to do laundry, eat, shower, mall, tan, and watch the superbowl of course!  I'm out!

xoxo, TRACY DAWN :o)

I'm sitting here dreaming of chocolate chips and peanut butter.... trying my hardest to STAY FOCUSED! i began really dieting for 2010 a few weeks ago, and have tappered down these last few days.... UGH, im definitely NOT A HAPPY DIETER! I love, love the training, the cardio, the stage, the tan, the make-up... but the diet, cmon!!! There's got to be an easier way.... lol. But since I feel this year is my year .... I have to FOCUS! I want my pro card so badly..... I just know its coming my way!!! I am training with an awesome group of women under Jack Titone, "JACKED UP DIVA's" we are where its at this year baby!!!!

My fitness journey began in 2006 with my first fitness show and i have been addicted since... although now under a trainer and getting hounded daily by him (luv ya jack... but let me breathe a lil) hehe!! I know that without him and Ann (IFBB Figure Pro) Jack's wife... I more than likely would not have been competing this year!! That's why I know i gotta stick with him... even if he ONLY allows me one cheat meal per week and no form of sugar whatsoever in my diet!!! i can do it, i can do it, i can do it!!!!! Tonight I got some motivation from one of my idols... I just got off the phone with Ms. Jenny Lynn.... it was a random thing, sort of a business opportunity.... i was super excited to hear from her! As we were chatting I was online looking at her photos and all the work she has done.... simply amazing and definitely MOTIVATING!!!! That got me back in the mind set I had lost over these last few weeks of nonsense in my life! So here i come 2010.... holla!!!